Feeling things is creativity, curiosity, movement.
Good morning, Friday reader.
I have been feeling about how I am showing up on social media. Not thinking. I am trying not to “think” too much. “Thinking” about things creates barriers, excuses, bullshit stories, pros and cons.
Feeling things is creativity, curiosity, movement.
I am inviting new pulsations, rhythms into my every day.
If I thought too much about doing 30 minutes of sun salutations each morning at 5.15am I would find 100 excuses why I don’t have time. Feeling it. My hips speak for me – “do it”, my energy pushes me to the mat.
I saw an opportunity last Saturday to offer my books to a local homeware/ gift shop. My mind did start to think on it. It came up with a couple of excuses. I was in the garden at the time and the moment I started thinking on it, I stood on a branch that had been cut off the rose bush and ended up with 5 rose thorns stuck in the bottom of my foot. I immediately stopped thinking of excuses.
Three hours later my books were on display in the shop. Three days later I had a message to say: “there has been sales of your books – Congratulations”.
Feeling like not wanting to email the executive for a signature because of nervousness, having no choice, and getting a friendly response and signature minutes later. Not overthinking the uncomfortable work conversation – following my voices need to say what I need to say. Not feeling like stopping at Woolies on the way home from work for lunch ingredients, doing it anyway and receiving a text message the next day from my youngest boy saying: “thank you for the delicious lunch – best mum ever”. Over thinking, going to bed at 7.30pm because it’s ‘too early” my body screaming at me to sleep – best nights sleep and meaningful dreams.
Earlier in the year I uninstalled Instagram from my phone for 62 days. It was glorious. I replaced looking at my phone in the morning to looking at the sunrise, I read paperback books instead of scrolling. I was taking notice, paying attention, moving, feeling into what I am doing, not numbing by scrolling and forever consuming. I was creating what I wanted.
I haven’t “thought” about social media in the same way since. If I feel like creating something on my account – I do. If think on it too much, wondering what I should post, I don’t question it, I don’t contribute to the content of the app. Energy flows where focus goes. If I am questioning, in doubt, and scarcity; that’s the energy I am contributing. I don’t want to feel that.
Which brings me to the first couple of lines of this email to you. My feeling about social media. I did a story last week about how miraculous it is that we are all alive and connected at this time in history, that out of billions of people in the world and on an app on the internet we have found each other. Must be for a reason or season. And that is why I love saying “good morning” every day. Gratitude for seeing another sun rise, gratitude for the people who see that story, gratitude for the people who say good morning in return.
I haven’t created a post or a reel in a month or so. Just not feeling it. When I say “just not feeling it’, I have “thought” about my “why” of being on social media, I have thought of the value in what I share. Am I sharing or wanting to create for the dopamine of likes and attention? Am I creating for creativity or curiosity? Am I creating for education, connection? Am I proud of what I create/share? It is more important to me to know and abide by my values. Not add to the noise and meaningless shit that no one cares about, doesn’t connect with.
But the feeling of something is brewing. I keep coming back to and feeling “personal blog” those are the words that I can feel.
And this email has made that feeling stronger.
As women we are wise, intuitive, connected beings, our heart, body, energy knows what is needed for us. I can feel many aligned pulsations, rhythms, openings in making choices from this feeling.
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You are a woman. You have wisdom deep in your belly. Remember that.
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Create your life from your power, and wisdom.
Have a beautiful day
Melinda
For a bit over three years I have held mentoring conversations with women creatives, women in their own business, or creating projects. These sessions were to verbally process, to gain clarity, to have another woman to talk to. I will NEVER underestimate the power of one focused and deeply connected conversation. I love these women’s spaces and the impact they create. The last 9 months has taught me a lot and I know will intensify these mentoring conversations. I hold these on a Friday(Australia time), book below if you would like to chat.